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Pretender

I'm tired of pretending
Pretending that nothing's wrong
Cuz I been pretending for way too long
I'm tired of pretending
to be happy inside
I'm tired of pretending
when I kno I'm dying inside
]I'm tired of people pretending
they care
I'm tired people pretending
they wannna be there
for me
for Lil Ci Ci
Most of they BS make me queasy
I'm tired of pretending
that I'm ot being lied tio
I'm tired of pretending
he's here by my side too
I'm tired of pretending
I'm tired of it all
I'm tired pretending I don't
feel this small
I'm tired of the pretenders
tryna befreind me
But then I think about it
and the biggest pretender in my life
is me.
I'm tired of the make
believe and the just pretend
Cuz I don't wanna see
this bethe end
of me
takign all of my energy
killing me inside
wanting to go and hide
in the darkness with no guide
with nobody to ride
with me
thru this pain
thru this storm
and thru this rain.
I'm tired of pretending
I don't care about you
I'm tired of pretending
Cuz I know I do
I'm tired of pretending
that you're not still in my heart
I'm tired of pretending
Cuz you've been stuck there since we fell apart
I'm tired of pretending
I don't love you no more
I'm tired of pretending
Cuz I'm not even totally sure
whether I still love you or not
Cuz sum other gurl could be taking my spot
I'm tired of pretening
I'm real hard and ruthless
Tired of pretending
Cuz I'm the one looking stupid
When asked questions about you
I don't knwo what to do.
I get on the defensive
then things I say get real offensive
I'm tired of pretending
I know what to do
Cuz I already know
I can't do this without you
you, Maya, Gina, Sammy, and the rest
I'm tired of feeling like I'm alone
When I kno I got the best
Sometimes I feel attacked
I feel hurt
And the mixture of both of 'em together
Makes you feel worse
I feel like no one understands
Like no one knows
All the hurt and pain I feel
Maybe only God knows
But I pray to God
to take the pain away
Make it like a bad drean on a rainy day
Make it fade away
Out of my memory
Not where I wanna be
Wishing I could just leave my body
and let my soul wonder
wanting to just ponder
Ponder everything over yonder
I'm tired of pretending
that nothing ever hurts me
when I just feel the most hurt
coming from those who love me
Not all wounds heal
and not all scars show
Ciz I been feeling this
way for a while on tha low
But now it's eaten me inside
Practically eaten me alive
Deminished all my pride
I'm tired of pretending and it's
coming to an end
U want sum advice?
Here's some
DOn't to me and pretend.