Song of the Day - Hello - Beyoncé

Today's song of the day is called Hello by Beyoncé. I love this song but I'm not sure why but it kinda just grew on me. But honestly it's a really cool song.

FINALLY....I Came To A Decision xD

I decided that I'ma give us another shot. I still love him and he still loves me. If it doesn't work then it don't but all I know is that I wouldn't wanna be with anyone but him. That's how much he got my heart. Yes, Chelsea Luvs Her Booskie Daeshaun ALL DAY [Love U Babe ♥] ☺

Sometimes love comes around
(love comes around love comes around)
and it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(knocks you down) ------Keri Hilson

Hmm....Still Not Sure

Ugh still haven't come up with a decision yet but I'm working on it...Idk y dis situation got me trippin so hard. Then I got people pretending like everything is gravy with me n them. Ugh I swear I hate fake ass niggas they annoy me to the fullest and to think I was actually tryna be cool with them. Screw it n all them hoes. I'ma be as cold and heartless as the next.

"In the night, I hear 'em talk,
The coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul
to a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless?
Oh... How could you be so heartless?" -----Kanye West

Today was.....THOUGHTFUL :-/

Today was the very first time I actually thought about a certain situation in my life the entire day. Like it had me thinking all day. N I've come to understand the situation, possible options, and the consequences of them. But still I'm unsure of what I'ma do. *SIGH* Decisions, decisions....

Got BORED So I Made This

In My Bag Today

Today I was pretty cheerful. Pretty much in my bag tha whole day and barely lost my cool lol. I know ppl talk ish about me but it's cool cuz HATERZ MAKE ME FAMOUS. n that's all I gotta say. U SEE ME HI HATER. BYE HATER. LoL But u kno i loves everybody including tha haters cuz they help me prosper n become a better me.

Today was cool

Today I had a pretty good day. Nothing went horrible but everything seemed calm. One of firsts days like this. lol

Pretender - New

Pretender

I'm tired of pretending
Pretending that nothing's wrong
Cuz I been pretending for way too long
I'm tired of pretending
to be happy inside
I'm tired of pretending
when I kno I'm dying inside
]I'm tired of people pretending
they care
I'm tired people pretending
they wannna be there
for me
for Lil Ci Ci
Most of they BS make me queasy
I'm tired of pretending
that I'm ot being lied tio
I'm tired of pretending
he's here by my side too
I'm tired of pretending
I'm tired of it all
I'm tired pretending I don't
feel this small
I'm tired of the pretenders
tryna befreind me
But then I think about it
and the biggest pretender in my life
is me.
I'm tired of the make
believe and the just pretend
Cuz I don't wanna see
this bethe end
of me
takign all of my energy
killing me inside
wanting to go and hide
in the darkness with no guide
with nobody to ride
with me
thru this pain
thru this storm
and thru this rain.
I'm tired of pretending
I don't care about you
I'm tired of pretending
Cuz I know I do
I'm tired of pretending
that you're not still in my heart
I'm tired of pretending
Cuz you've been stuck there since we fell apart
I'm tired of pretending
I don't love you no more
I'm tired of pretending
Cuz I'm not even totally sure
whether I still love you or not
Cuz sum other gurl could be taking my spot
I'm tired of pretening
I'm real hard and ruthless
Tired of pretending
Cuz I'm the one looking stupid
When asked questions about you
I don't knwo what to do.
I get on the defensive
then things I say get real offensive
I'm tired of pretending
I know what to do
Cuz I already know
I can't do this without you
you, Maya, Gina, Sammy, and the rest
I'm tired of feeling like I'm alone
When I kno I got the best
Sometimes I feel attacked
I feel hurt
And the mixture of both of 'em together
Makes you feel worse
I feel like no one understands
Like no one knows
All the hurt and pain I feel
Maybe only God knows
But I pray to God
to take the pain away
Make it like a bad drean on a rainy day
Make it fade away
Out of my memory
Not where I wanna be
Wishing I could just leave my body
and let my soul wonder
wanting to just ponder
Ponder everything over yonder
I'm tired of pretending
that nothing ever hurts me
when I just feel the most hurt
coming from those who love me
Not all wounds heal
and not all scars show
Ciz I been feeling this
way for a while on tha low
But now it's eaten me inside
Practically eaten me alive
Deminished all my pride
I'm tired of pretending and it's
coming to an end
U want sum advice?
Here's some
DOn't to me and pretend.

Pretender

Pretender
I'm tired of ppl pretending
saying they care
when I know
they rlly not there
they don't wanna say
what they want
but lie to my face
Feeling like I'm being replaced
Pretend what they want
just for show
just so the one will
think they know
How they feel about me
Pretender
Ppl pretend around me all the time
ppl pretend they like me
then turn on me
at the drop of a dime
I feel attacked
I feel hurt
I feel so lost
that it feels
like it's not gonna end
Just one thing I'ma say
Pleaz dont Pretend.

ALLLLLREADY

Already this morning somebody pissed me off n it's like 8:00 in tha morning ppl already starting with me. Forget this today I'm snapping on ppl and idc who catches it im sooo done.

Feliz Madres Dia - Happy Mother's Day

I wanna say Happy Mother's Day To ALL Mothers. Much Love
This is what I did for my mom for Mother's Day.

R U Serious???

Don't you hate it when people think you're stupid or something like you're not smart enough to add 2 and 2 together to get 4? People swear I'm stupid I swear and it gets more and more annoying everyday. They lie to you, talk behind your back then smile up in your face. I just don't get it why do they think you're that stupid to just swallow what they say. Somebody tell me please cuz I just don't get it personally.

WTF???

There have been a lot of wtf??? moments in my day but one topped all the others. How would you feel if someone you liked was messin with someone you disliked? Even worse, they treat them better than they treat u? But they tell you they wanna be your friend. Not much of a friend huh? That's a wtf??? moment from my day. I keep wondering whether the entire male race will change. That's a million dollar question with a ten dollar answer. Ya feel me? Dueces.

Emotions

Emotions
emotions rolling round inside me
emotions
tryna fake a smile and hide the real me
emotions
feeling these sad feelings in spite of he,
he who can't be
be with me
but wanting us to be the way we used to be
emotions
feeling like my world is crumbling
my emotions go out of control and keep tumbling
emotions
feeling like it's raining
but it's only raining on me
emotions
feeling like I don't wanna live today
not wanting to feel this way
but sometimes I wish I could just fade away
From the drama
The boyz
and all in between
But when my thoughts go bad
I can come off really mean
snapping out,
pissed off at the world
man it really sucks to be a girl
emotions
all them going out of control
but I know I'll neva be alone
cuz that's not how I roll
emotions
so many....so much
I wish I didn't have them
Oh what such luck
emotions
Thinking bout the good times
And how he used to make me feel when he was mines
feeling like I lost the greatest love of all time
I loved him with all my heart
I knew I would right from the start
Our love was like a priceless work of art
emotions
What I'm feeling now?
I don't know
I could be bien, mal, o tranquilo
emotions
to all my haterz I say screw you
but to the one I love I say
do you?
think of me anymore?
of this I can be sure
emotions
One time love came around
And it knocked me down
Still struggling to get up
Hopefully when it comes around again
I won't be set up
to fall
lose it all
again
another friend
emotions
I'm so lost
Out in the darkness with no guide
wanting to hide
what's inside
swallowing my pride
letting stuff ride
emotions
I feel alone
when I'm surrounded by friends
but the silence speaks loud
my head's in the clouds
tryna call out
for help
for hope
keep trying and trying
is it here yet?
Nope.
emotions
Anger brewing inside me
feeling the aggression and depression
settling beside me
the old me is dead and gone...
but for how long?
maybe til somebody test me
then I'mma have to resurrect me
go back to the way I used to be
but luckily
I've come too far from where I started from where I started from
too lose it all now
but I feel like I'm finna lose it
but how?
how do I keep from becoming that monster?
easy, just watch her
don't give in
even though your pride may want you to pound her face in
emotions
Happiness and joy surround part of me
Half just wants love and honesty
The other half doesn't care, just wants to party
and dance
dance my pain away
hoping this rain will just fade away
and make way
for happiness
and joy
but the best part of all
I don't need no boy
to bring me joy
I can be happy wit me
emotions
Haterz, don't like me?
your loss
but I bet in a few years
you'll be calling me
Miss Boss
don't get it backwards, criss-cross
emotions
At a loss?
for words?
for me?
Never that
I'm always here to pick up what you seem to lack
My flow is relentless
Not tryna end this
But my real intent is
to spill out all thoughts and past situations
tryna get 'em to stop and just end
but never ever should I try to drown myself in
My word stay bold and intense
But just like Ne-yo says,
I AM Miss Independent