Journey to Find the One 4 Me

why?
why do i feel this way?
i try mi hardest ta keep it hidden
but all the time mi brain gets overidden
with sorrow & sadness
it's complicated even for mi ta understand it
though i try mi best to hide it with a smile
the smile turns to tears and im stuck in sorrow's mile.
it brings mi ta tears just thinking about it
i wanna be with someone that's gonna love mi 4 mi
but always end up in a relationship where i dont wanna be
hurt n lied to
so i can be angry n cry too
this whole thing is really
but i wish someone could juss see the real me
love me for who i am
not for who they want me ta be
pain wreaks within mi heart
man i wish i could go back to the start
the start of a new
a way i could undo
past heartbreaks
painful heart aches
so much of this can make a person hate
hate love
hate everything involved
but honestly i hate lies the most because they are the cause
of pain
of selfish gain
it brings tha rain
makes it even harder to let go of tha pain
wish i could juss forget it all,
wish i didnt fall
so hard
so fast
man will it even last?
last long enough for love?
maybe...maybe not
im not having high hopes
those hopes might as well rot
the sorrow continues until i am no more
will i ever be with someone that's gonna stay wit me thru all tha wars
all the rain?
all the pain?
that right there would be something to gain
but as for now im on a journey
to find the one
made for me.