Thru Tha Pain

why?
why do i have these feelings?
why do they sink deep inside me?
when i kno i got him right beside me?
i still feel this way
he keeps helping me everday
picking up the broken pieces of mi heart
making everything better like it was
at the start
many things going through mi mind
many people goin out of line
sayin things to hurt mi
and honestly
it does hurt but i learn to deal wit tha tretchery
the lies and such
its ok
cuz i will be ok
i wont cry
n i wont try
i'll be strong
i'll hold on
do what i gotta do
n move on
i can't stay broken hearted for too long
cuz then that phase will be too strong
too strong
for me ta move on
and no room for him to be in mi heart
cuz i kno he wants ta play that part
wants ta be mi knight
wants ta be Mr. Right
that would be tight
but all i'm thinking is can i do this again
can i let love take mi in?
will i let it win?
a tug or war on mi heart
who knows who will win?
will it be love inside or mi?
or mi spirit within?
when i find out
i'll let you kno
the time has come
i have to go
but until it ends
mi man will be standing right beside mi
in the tha rain
helping mi through this
trying pain.